It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh Outweighed the bad.
I thought we'd get to see forever But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday

I don't know where this road
Is going to lead.
All I know is where we've been
And what we've been through
If we get to see tomorrow
I hope it's worth the wait
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday

And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday
And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday

I imagined growing up together, becoming young adults and getting together for coffee when the kids were off at school. I imagined barbecues, beach days and planned holiday vacations together. I imagined borrowing sugar for cookies and staying up far later than we should playing cards and drinking ourselves foolish after a stressful night at work. I imagined Sunday afternoons relaxing on the porch while the guys played football and we remodeled our kitchens. I imagined our children growing up together like we did, having that security, having friends to grow up with is one of life's luckiest treasure's, and without you along the way I might not have grown at all.
The ten year old side of me imagined growing old together and telling stories of "remember when" and getting to do all those cool things our parents seemed to do.
I guess I just imagined. Yesterday has come and gone and here we are on different zip codes, balancing on heavy broken hearts. This is when we make the biggest decisions of our lives. This is when we are setting in stone the people we have become. This is when I need all of you the most and the least. And change can be good and it may be hurtful. How do I say goodbye to what we had? The good times that made us laugh out weighed the bad.
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday. I can't believe life has come to this. What happened? If we get to see tomorrow knowing what we would know in twenty years, would we even say goodbye? For one moment we came together, we loved each other and unfortunately the only thing that made us appreciate life was death but that has even faded apparently for some and just like the seasons change and the earth breathes again, we will come and go. I want to enjoy the time I have here on earth. And in one simple breath I take in the memories we've had. All I know is where we've been and what we've been through. If we get to see tomorrow I hope it's worth all the wait. It's so hard to say goodbye. You have been my sunshine after the rain for many years but now you're creating a storm inside my soul. All the fighting has to stop. Life is too short and no one knows where forever went but it passed us already. If anger and hatred is all you can hold in your heart then I am truly sorry for you but I don't want that surrounding my life. At the end of today I may be judged by you and your opinions strike me outstanding. But in all reality it's none the loss for I have gained so many good moments, memories and experiences I wouldn't trade for the world.
I love the people I love unconditionally. That means them. That means you too. And if for one moment in time you could pause and appreciate life, I hope perhaps you'll learn what forgiveness, love and patience is for. And if you're going to hide behind anger instead of grow old with each level in life together, you can hide alone, but I'm going to continue to grow old with the people I love and I'm willing to sacrifice my reputation for that simple serene Sunday afternoon.