I am at peace

When I stand in the wind, listen and capture my senses, when I feel raindrops splashing on my eyelashes, or hear the rumble of the earth early in the morning I can't help but think or feel in every part of me that there is a God. When I walk down the street, and feel tired, broken and fearless, a fast car drives by and reminds me what fear is for. And when I pray, when I let go, when I breathe in, when I live, I am reminded why I am alive.
When I cry, when I'm alone or in public, when I smile at a stranger, when I say goodbye to someone I love my heart races. When I'm in love and free with peace my fingertips go numb and my sight is strengthened. When I can not see anymore or feel, when I am nothing, still, I will cry, I will smile, I will live and I will breathe for every part of me knows, is completely convinced there is, indeed, a God who has given me the distinguished ability to trust him to be my sight, my fear, my emotion, my balance and my peace.
Whether Jesus was perfect, married, or the Savior is not the question I ask over and over again. I already know those answers. But deep within me at the end of the day is whether everyone around me can let go, lean ino the wind, blind sighted with their hearts racing or will they just fall before they learn to trust more next time? I love all of my friends, my family. I'm not perfect, yes, I've sinned but I don't want to leave everyone behind. What next? Where do I go from here? How do I hold back from telling them how wonderful it feels to understand that serenity? It has nothing to do with being damned to hell, it's here on earth, those moments, even those struggles that we should enjoy with trust. How do I explain what it feels like? How do I tell them that they are strong when life keeps letting them fall?
So far I have held back, kept my mouth shut to those who don't want to be pestered. It's not my job to judge, it's not my job to condemn anyone or even push them away. But I do not think before I live, before I breathe, before I love. I just do and with that, I am at peace.