Dangled

I can't fly
Have you ever been afraid to love? Most of the time when someone has issues with love it's because they were once hurt right? Or at least we'll assume in my case. Sometimes when you open that part of your world to someone they don't always see it as a gift, as it should be portrayed. Sometimes they take that as a notion to walk all over you and sometimes they don't deserve it.
I look back on the times I've loved someone and remembered the stain they have left not only on my heart but in who I am. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger right? But when you have given everything, all or nothing to one person, when you have divided your individual time for self exploration and peace, you find something even more beautiful, your other half. That part of you that seems to be missing. But what happens when it breaks? When that time becomes uncomfortable and stuck in pathetic arguments about the whether. Or when that trust you once had has vanished beyond comparison? What happens?
Why do I feel like I can't love again. I've heard repetitively "Get over it!" from what seems to be the world. I can't just trust anymore. I can't just get over it. I'm still broken and I'll admit that it hurts.
I've found someone new and I wonder if he's like everyone else. I wonder when he'll drop me and little by little that overwhelming feeling of comfort is creeping into me. I want to let go of my inhabitions. I want to be there in that moment. I want to trust. What will it take for my tears to stop sealing my heart? What does he have to prove in order for me not to be so scared?
I want to feel fearless.
I want to feel free.
I want him to show me.
I want him to teach me and embrace me all over again
because I am so naive.